After an idea from a friend, I am treating July 1st as New Year Day… I really need to start 2014 over!
I just signed back into my tumblr account probably since the last time that I wrote my blog last blog update in October 2013. When I wrote that a lot had changed since July… that was an understatement…. My whole world has been turned upside down. A few days after posting I found out I was pregnant with our second child. Yay! We were ecstatic! My pregnancy was perfect… I mean I was super sick for the first 19-20 weeks but I was okay with that knowing that it was going to be our last child and I was going to enjoy every moment of the pregnancy.
At our 19 week ultrasound we discovered that we were having a baby girl! Everyone was so excited, she was going to be the 1st girl on both sides of our family! At 26 weeks I began having horrible headaches and on Friday, March 21, 2014 after just feeling a bit off and not feeling the baby kick that morning I went in just to get checked out. I was waiting for the triage nurse to tell me I was being super paranoid and to go back home… but after my nurse left and a rush of doctors came in I soon realized that something was terribly wrong. My baby girls heartbeat had stopped… After a full day in the hospital with tears and endless tests, I delivered our beautiful baby girl. The deafening silence after she was born still haunts me to this day. 3 months later and the grief is still there and will always be, but my family and I are learning to move on.
The doctors discovered torsion in the umbilical cord causing the blood flow to cut itself off. The one thing that has helped me through is knowing that our daughter, Hadley Kathryn is with her Grandpa Tom in Heaven.
I have been working hard to get my pre pregnancy body back. I went back on Weight Watchers and since the day I delivered at 26 weeks I have lost 22.8 lbs!
I still have a long way to go so you’re going to see a lot more of me on here! : )